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Wednesday, 14 April 2010

what is there left to say?

not an awful lot really

its all a bit too late




years too late

i want out of this mess already

im sick of hanging in there waiting for it to get better.what if it never does?

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

But what if it does? What if, this time next year, you could be well on your way to recovery? I know what it's like when life just keeps chucking crap at you and you can't imagine feeling anything other than pain and anxiety and desperation. If you've never known anything else, it's no wonder you have trouble believing that your life could be different. But it can Vics, you may feel hopeless but your life is not, you have the potential to live a happy and healthy life too and I know you want that, even if it seems unachievable at the moment. You won't know unless you stick around to find out though. Please don't give up <3

Jennifer said...

Vicki, I don't have the answers or a way to ease the hurt, confusion, pain, anger,all the emotions you must be feeling...but I DO KNOW that YOU are strong and incredible enough to hang in through this, and come out the other side of it...I love you and think you are amazing - please please try to take care of you and think how much we all love and admire you.
Huge hugs and all my love and care...sweetheart,hang on...xxooxxoo

mariposai said...

I agree with Katie, it's really worth sticking around, since there is always the possibility of better things. No one can guarantee that life will be hunky dory like a Disney story (sorry about that - unintentional rhyming), but there will always be good things along with the naff stuff.

You've had it tough, but you are still here, still lovely and that's got to show for something. It means you are pretty fab.

Sarah x

Anonymous said...

Yes there is a chance that things may stay the same. But there is also the chance that things will get better. Hold onto the hope that once you've made it through all this, you will be living a happier life and you will look back and be proud of yourself for getting through it all. Don't give up.
Take care,
Cassie

battleinmind said...

I can't really add to what the others have said, but I'm thinking of you and I hope you can hold on to hope. I honestly believe things can get better.
love Ellie
xxx

Jessie said...

I think Katie's exactly right. This time last year I felt the same way and I didn't think things would ever be different. I would never, ever have believed that I would be where I am right now. I really thought that things were pretty much over in my life and all I had left to do was wrap things up. But the thing is that you never know what's going to happen or where you will end up. It might get better.

I'm thinking about you.