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Sunday, 4 April 2010

Another pointless post

dude from home treatment team told me today that im allowed to just be having a shitty day.People do, and there doesnt have to be mega reasons for it.

so there you are.

i'm having a shitty day. I feel  super sore(though thats entirely my fault), and grouchy and upset. I want everything to just go away now.I dont want to deal with court letters and have a box full of things like scan photos and letters from back then. Could never throw it away though.Its like this funny compulsion to look through it all.

told you this was a pointless post!

3 comments:

mariposai said...

None of your posts are pointless missy. True, it's ok to have a shitty day cos we all have them, but it's also ok to seek support, and especially when there's so much stuff from your past that you are trying to come to terms with.

Remember that there is nothing in your past worth punishing yourself for my dear.

Sarah x

Unknown said...

I'm sorry you are having a really bad day. I agree with Sarah though that it is not a pointless post, sometimes it can help to just type out what you're thinking and what has been going on.
*hugs*

Jessie said...

This is definitely not pointless--sometimes you do just need to write that you are having a shitty day. You have every right to be grouchy and upset. And I'm really sorry about all the court stuff. I know how hard it can be to keep from looking through all that stuff, and even if you don't want to toss it, just put it away for right now so you don't have to look and be reminded.

*hugs*