This is NOT a Pro ED/SI blog. I'm not pretending to be perfect, i'm not recovered, but I WANT to be.

today you are you
that is truer than true
there is no-one alive
who is youer than you

Thursday, 21 May 2015

Eating disorder fiction/memoirs

Can someone recommend a book which is more about bulimia/ednos than anorexia and isn't uninspiring? 

The last one I read ended in death and can't deal with that again, but do seem to have an unquenchable thirst for these books right now. 

Thanks x

Thursday, 7 May 2015

Easy

It's all so much easier when you are ill. You don't have to think about shitty things that hurt, done by people who shouldn't be doing the hurting. You just think about food. And really, I've been doing that for years so it should be simple by now. 

I'm really hurting. It's so complicated and so hard and it really bloody hurts. 


Tuesday, 5 May 2015

Beautiful girl- lighting candles

Today I lost someone special. I met her in  an inpatient programme in York- the best programme I've ever found. I felt safe there, enveloped in care, but pushed- oh so pushed to be well. 

Previous girl slipped from us in her sleep. 

Rest in peace darling. You deserve peace. Love always xxxx

You will be remembered xxxxx