uneasy and unsure

I feel really uneasy writing here now. and unsure what to do. this blog is now private due to what happened with college, in an attempt to stop people reading it that i dont want to. I guess i was very naive not to see it coming really.

But im not keen to remove my name/change address and details-its my blog-my life-and i havnt actually doe anything wrong.and changing it would be reinforcing in my head that i have done wrong, and i should be ashamed of what i write about.

and i dont think thats the way it should be. I wanted to encourage others by writing this, in the hope that we can support eachother through blogging-and people can feel they are not alone in feeling this way.so making my blog private goes againstthese things for me, but its necessary for now. i decided i didnt want to stop blogging-as its my only real outlet, and i do so need it at the mo.

could someone do me a favour, and make a link to my emailaddress or something (vickilovesbows@googlemail.com) so people can ask for invites if they want them? if you have my hotmail email-im still using that. but dont want to post it here

thankyou everyone for your support when this kicked off

and DONT POST YOUR COLLEGE NAME!lesson learnt

il write a proper explanatory post when ive sussed out if they can still search it. And im going to have to delete some posts i think-so dont think ive done it because of what any of you have commented!

lots of love and thanks

sods!they aint kicking me even more while im down!i need my blog!i love my blog, and i love all of you!

xxx