arhhhh
this is getting hideous
my head is buzzing.i feel blurry and the only reason i kee writing posts is to try and keep me distracted from all the horrible stuff going on in my head.
called home treatment team and begged them to help me pretty much.they said (and i quote) 'as you are aware that the feelings you are experiancing are partly due to stopping meds, then it should be a lot easier to fight these urges-becasue the rational part of you knows that it is due to med withdrawel'
what bullshit.anyway, they told me to persevere and it would all ease off.
i know si doesnt get me anywhere-i know it doesnt help.but i dont think i have EVER wabted to do anything as badly as i do now. I just cant see the point any more.its all so overwhelming.I feel like its all 'the end'. Mums gone and im so messed up. i dont know what im supposed to doing. I just want to hurt, cos thats what i feel i deserve, thats what will take some of this away.i think mum got it right. maybe, she had it all sussed out.
this majorly sucks.
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I could kick your home treatment team. Argh.
I know what withdrawal is like and that knowing what's going on doesn't make it any easier to cope with, but try and hang on to the idea that the worst of it will be over in a few days <3 please don't do anything drastic, phone them again and again until they HAVE to help you if you need to.
I agree firstly that they should be kicked and secondly that you drive them insane with phone calls every time you feel this getting out of control. I'm sorry hun, that you feel so shit. These effects can usually last for a few days but if you can't cope then the home treatment team suck and they are not good enough, though I think we already know that. I wish I could give you a big hug!
*hugs*
Sarah
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