i dont feel like me anymore. Well, what i got used to me being, yknow. i kinda want to hide away forever, give in to this hopeless overwhelming feeling. it wold be so easy to cut myself off from everyone and everything.
but maybe-well, yknow, i spose thatwould get boring pretty quickly!
i got in a right old state last night.felt all lost and unidentifiable. and i felt so angry-prorer throw things about and shout and yell RAGE. i just wanted out from everything i guess. i read back over my blog, and there was so much i just couldnt bear to read...actualy right now im kinda greatful im such a computer spak, cos i prob would have just deleted whole blog, and then i would be even more upset right now!
i want-i dont know.everything seems so out of reach.
xxx
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Aw I'm sorry you're feeling this way, please don't delete your blog - I'm still in love the wonderfully pretty layout btw. It's ok to be angry...I know this is a little odd, but I sometimes find it helps to scream into a pillow. Maybe that's just me, but sending hugs to you anyhow.
Sarah x
I agree with Sarah, don't delete your blog! I know that it sucks to feel so lost and you know what, I'm feeling the same right now, but for other reasons. You've had such a rough time of late and you have to bear that in mind. It does help to scream and yell sometimes and if you feel like it, do it, get it out! I would love to take up kickboxing. Wow, that would help when I am angry and just want to beat the shit out something, ie a punching bag. I hope you start to feel a little bit more like yourself soon and maybe it is a transition time where you have to re-evaluate where you are and what you are doing. Just know that I am thinking of you and hoping you are okay!
*hugs*
Sarah
When I look through new blog entries, yours is the one I look for first, please don't delete it! It sucks that you feel lost, maybe you could try doing some things that remind you, who you are, things you used to enjoy before this depression came along.
You are lovely.
xxxxx
I think it's really normal for you to be feeling anger and I think if you can direct your anger away from yourself and at all the other things you have a right to be angry about it might actually be a good thing. Maybe try not to read back over the old stuff when you're feeling this way.
You are so wonderful!
xoxo
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