todays adventures

I think im in love with formspring-please keep asking silly questions, it makes me laugh!!!

bloody hell my stomach REALLY hurts.

today was my best friends birthday.we went to the theatre this evening t see a dance company, which was amazing. we spent the afternoon riding down  hill on a skateboard, cos we are cool like that hahaha(and by that i mean we SAT on the board and shoved eachother down the hill!im not really 25 lol)

I also finally saw my cpn today.On Monday, i got so fed up with lack of contact and support, i wrote a complaint letter ant took it down to the CMHT office. funnily enough, after getting that, my CPN had a 'cancellation'.

She made me feel like utter scum for asking for help.like i was just wanting attention.so i told her i was sick of it-of having to fight for help. how i felt so bad, i feel like giving in to ed and si all the timenow, and how i feel unable to cope with things.she ummed and ahhed a lot, but eventually admitted that i prob needed some sort of therapy, but it would be a long wait, kore tha likely.erm ive been waiting since last year, and its fucking outrageous that the only reason that they recognise i might need help is cos mum died,.so itl prob never actually happen.she told me to stop keeping food diaries, as they are triggering me to restrict.

ugh i fee really ill, my tummy hurts soo bad.think will finish this in morn xxx