today you are you
that is truer than true
there is no-one alive
who is youer than you
today i am me. and i can only do my best.
what does being me mean?
It means im scared of eating, scared of feeling full. But im scared of this emptyness too. It means im sick. But it doesnt mean i cant get better.
Being me means that i wear a lot of bows:)It means i have appreciation for the weird things in life, like the moomins!
im struggling here cos that all i can think of.thats a preyyt bad picture.suoerficial.i dont waznt to be superficial.
A few years ago i would have said being me meant i was ambitious and creative and fun.it meant i wanted things from life.it meant that Ed just amused himself for some of the time and didnt need my constant attention.It meant that I wanted to be someone else who could.
My mum just phoned me.She asked me how much i weighed now.Not how i was, how i was feeling, not well done for getting into uni.
how much did i weigh.
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Aw hun I'm so sorry your mum asked that, but sounds like she is not in the best place to support you right now. You are NOT crap, and the things you like do NOT make you superficial.
You are a person of real depth and character, and there is alot about you that I like. You like some quirky things, which make you unique, but more importantly you are kind and caring, such an empathic and compassionate human being. There's not enough people like you in this world. You are also smart and despite all the crap you've had to deal with you have still got into uni.
You are a star and I think you are not praising yourself enough for what you have achieved, not just over these past few weeks, but over your life as a whole.
Be proud of you, cos there's plenty to be proud of.
Sarah x
You are awesome vics! You ARE creative and you ARE fun. Even if you don't see these things. I think you are also still ambitious or you wouldn't be doing your uni applications. You just have to realise they are still there and that vics is a lovely person! How could I not like you when you were the inspiration for Ziggy's bow :-)
I really hope that soon you start to feel better. Be gentle with yourself, you will and can get through all of this!
*hugs*
Sarah
You will get through this and
you are absolutely right--the fact that you are having a hard time does not mean that things will always be hard.
The things you like don't make you superficial--they're such wonderful things to like. (Especially moomins as I've discovered! Without you, I would never have discovered them :) )
You are such a kind, caring person and I feel that I am so lucky that I've met you. You are so inspiring-the way you've worked through everything you've had to deal with.
I'm so sorry about you're mum. Just know that she has her own set of problems and they aren't yours. And don't let her problems hurt you.
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