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Monday, 29 March 2010

confessions from under my duvet

i cant sleep. i woke up at 3am spinning out from flashbacks and have been getting more and more anxious since.

i just want to curl up and die

all my words are stuck insideagain.there was soo much i was going to say but caant.

4 comments:

Lou Lou said...

hey babe, im so sorry i hate waking and feeling anxious, sometimes distraction can be the best thing for me... i try and flip on some youtube or listen to music i like. i hope you are ok and you are such a brave puppy! i think your just the bees knees and i wish there was more i could do! comment on my blog if ya wanna gmail chat.
much light to you xx

mariposai said...

Lou Lou gives good advice - maybe whack some music or youtube on, to help things feel a bit less scary and lonely.

When the words come, even if they don't appear to make sense, write them down anyway, because it might help to get them out.

Finally, have a warm hug from me and I hope you got some sleep at least.

Sarah x

Sairs said...

sorry you're feeling horrible hun! I know what helped me this weekend, getting inky and covered in glue (the glue bit was Ziggy's favourite part and he said there wasn't enough glitter). Can you try and go back to making stuff like you did a while ago. You could always make JP a fabulous new summer hat for the warm weather coming on for you guys. I'm in a silly mood tonight but I want you to know I'm thinking of you!
*hugs*
Sarah

Jessie said...

Hey there. I'm so sorry that you're feeling like this. I think even just writing that you're feeling this way is a huge first step and please keep trying to push through this, hard as it is.

*hugs*