im not sure i should be laughing at this, but...

I've just had the oddest doctors appointment. I was kinda dreading it, because although i think my gp is fab, he on the other hand, thinks im mad:) Still, i can live with that, becaue it means i can tell him whats really going on, instead of the 'im totally fine routine'.

this is how it normally goes

doc-'hi Vic, feeling totally better now, nothing was ever wrong, your on top of the world, right?'
Me-'yeh totally, this is like, a social visit or something, im like finer than fine.so....can i have some drugs please??!!'
doc-'you can have the crap ones yu cant OD on'
me-'wow, thanks, can i have lots of them??'
doc- 'i could give you a bucket fall and they wouldnt do anything worse than make you a bit sleepy.so NO. So, you've been behaving then...had some interesting letters from a and e etc etc etc .erm, ive run out of people to refer you too.
vic-'yeh i know.i would never do anything like that, they must have the wrong person.can i have some real drugs?'
Doc-'no you bloody cant, id lose my license!!!'

he knows how much im lying, but he also gets that i cant talk about it unless we can do it in a jokey kinda way. Anyway, having successfully managed to avoid seeing him for a few weeks, i rocked up today expecting to get read the riot act about vast numbers of stitches in tummy, OD'ing and fun little inpatient trips.

Doc 'well, your getting a little inventive these days arnt you!'

i dunno why but he made me laugh so much i couldnt breathe, must have been nervous hysterics or something cos 2 seconds later i was sobbing, and he was dead sweet, and said, maybe, i should have still been in hospital, and hes not entirely sure which lunatic discharged me, since hes been trying to get me in there for so long!hows that for reasuuring!

I told him that playdough, was apparantly the answer to all my problems, he laughed and asked me how long that had lasted!apparntly, i dont look like the 'playdough type', whatever that is.

so i just got home, and im waiting for my visit from home treatment team.who, if my doc has his way, are going to take me back to hospital.probably not a bad thing.hmn.

so i dont know why this is funny.it just kinda is.

had to go and visit my favourite people at the jobcentre this morning-idiots had revoked my claim AGAIN whilst i was in hospital.sheesh they dont like to make things stress free. but in my semi hysterical laughter/sobbing state im even finding this funny.Apparantly i dont exist on their system...which is pretty funny when you think how big my file must be, considering all the complaints and phonecalls ive made over the last couple of months!but all i got was 'sorry Miss Baker, you dont seem to exist on our records'-really??cos im pretty sure i spoke to you last week!


xxx