Smithdown road

A few years back, I at Liverpool University's Vet school-i think ive probably waffled ona bout this before, but it wasnt what i wanted to do at all-it was this idea i had when i was a kid, then i got good grades, and mum wanted it-and well yknow the score. I wasnt there very long at all, did the first year and then left. This time when i go to uni-its to do what I want:)

Smithdown road is in Liverpool, and is like this never ending quite busy road from the halls-which were about 40minutes from city centre and university, and most students moved out of halls into shared houses along this road.

I did all my 'best' thinking down this road whilst I was in Liverpool.

The end nearset the Halls was quite posh, and then as you got a bit further down it, it got grottier and dodgier-the 'wrong end' of smithdown road is fairly notorios, Pubs with boarded up windows, houses that have been trashed and turned into drug dens, that sort of thing! During Freshers week, we did a pub crawl done smithdown road-because there are about 12 pubs along it! seriously im not disrespecting anything, or where anyone comes from-im not-im just saying what i remember. there was this off license where the cashier had to lock themselves in this little cage to stay safe.

I used to walk down this road to go to ASDA and get my food shop, which was about halfway. I used to be panicking the whole way working out what to buy, what my flatmates ,ight think if they saw it in the fridge, if anyone was with me, would the notice how hard i found it to but food, omg what if i ended up being binge food and there their etc etc

I used to walk down this road after a night out in town with my friends Louise and Ruth, when we spent all our money and couldnt get a cab, giggling and laughing and thinking just for a minute, that i wwas someone else.

I used to run down this road with ED.

Sometimes id walk to uni because after everything went wrong i was to scared to get on then bus with everyone giving me hell, and ED used to spur me on to walk. when i first got to uni, we used to get lost all the time!im so crap at directions anyway, but as long as we found smithdown it was all good! First night we all got told to meet in a pub down this road to meet eachother.

During exam time, me and Louise walked into Uni down here and tested eachother on pharmacology or anatomy or whatever, gave up after 5 mins and started giggling instead!

Its funny how a place can be so central to so many memories, even a random road like this!I think of my time at LIverpool, and its a mush of memories with this place in the background.

I told the truth on that walk. I thought the truth to myself as well.I knew i was getting more ill, Worser than i had even been before when i was younger, and i used to try and stop it, but Ed would be right there with me, whispering in my ear.

I went to a party and got abused on that road. I got dumped in the gutter on that road.

I lost myself and found ED on that road.

And now its time to lose ED.