And I've gad some lovely emails (thanks guys)that have really got the hamster running on his wheel...its got a bit stiff recently...anyways...
Its ok to be upset and its ok to talk about it.I dont think i have ever really truly accepted that before, and pretending your ok gets you nowhere anyhow. So its alright that i feel low, and its ok that i got upset, because thats how i am coping at the moment. i guess you can only ever do what you can at the time, and why beat yourself up. I can be warrier Vic when i need to roar, and i can be brainy vic when i need to (finally)finish my flipping assignment later, and i can be sensible vic when it comes to following my mealplan.No one ever said that i have to be the same all the time, equally, NOBODY is happy, like ALL the time. My friends used to call me little miss sunshine, but just cos thats how they saw me, doesnt mean that has to be me. And its funny-cos i fully believe that trips and falls are enevitable during recovery, but its how you deal with it, ick yourself up, give ED a big fat slap and carry on that counts...not what the actual slip was...so i really need to apply this to myself.
ok, so I feel like im struggling.So i'l make sure i try my best to stick to my mealplan. Cos that will help. I got upset yesterday when everything got too much-well, who hasnt done that at some point. And i got lost and let SI win for a few days...doesnt mean it will always be that day, doesnt mean i cant start to fight it RIGHT NOW and noone said that you had to wait til tomorow to give yourself a new chance.
Bout time i started following my own advice!
its ok to be me, and its ok that there are lots of different parts of me.sorry i keep banging on about this, its just that i got stuck for a very long time thinking that people stayed the same forever, yknow, and people just dealt, and that they didnt have to adjust-they just could.i though i was lying to muself and playing parts, by acting in different ways, but turns out, its still al me.who the hell knew! Ive spent soo long running away from myself i wouldnt know me if it came up behind me and stole my bow!
thankyou everyone for you lovely support over the last few days, it ment a lot to me.
xxxx
I can be any of these at any given time of the day!haha
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I love Mr men and little miss...in fact little miss sunshine is my absolute fave (being my favourite colour - yellow!)
It is ok not to be ok, but the best thing, as you say, is to talk it through, and not take it out on yourself. Believe it or not, eating properly will help you work through the difficult times.
Whatever character or shape you are, I will never think any less of you. You are great and that is that ;) hehe
Sarah x
Love the mr men and little miss too! And I agree, it's okay to not be okay. We all have those days. I guess the thing is is that we are okay hearing you tell us about your bad days if you want to, because that's what we're here for. I hope you're feeling a little better.
*hugs*
Sarah
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