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Thursday, 25 February 2010

here i am in moomin land!

im dreaming obviously.
but heres what it would be like

im at uni and i really LOVE it,love what im doing, and am having a fab time.i wan to be a student again, and go to parties, and rock up to lectures needing large amounts of coffee, and have fun, amd make friends and find out new things about my self.i want the chance to have another go at it, and not be scared.but in moominland nothing scares me, i can walk the walk, and be me and be proud of it.

fastforward a few years, and i live near the sea, and i work for the nhs as a physiotherapist, which is the best job ever, rewarding and stimulating, and im married to a guy that looks a lot like john paul from hollyoaks and i have children and its all fabulous. i still have my lovely ponies, and mum comes to visit in moominland

i eat normal meals, and i dont think anything of it.in fact i had a really nice bit of malteaser cake today, and didnt think anything of it-not before, or after or the next day, i just ate it.like i eat everything else. and my stomach ulcer totally healed and never hurts, and im the best mum i can be to my children,i enjoy my life.

i rekon in moominland i have my own little boutique as well, where i sell all the clothes and accessories i make in my spair time, and do commisions for people, and its super cool.

above all though, im happy.day after day, remember?!

I promise to stop talking about moomins now guys!

4 comments:

mariposai said...

I like this dream...and who knows, one day some or all of it might become a reality :-)

xxx

battleinmind said...

I don't think this dream has to just be a dream. I think in small steps this could become your reality and you could love your own moomin life :) :)


xxxx

Jessie said...

I love this! And I don't see any reason why this can't be your life someday.

Sairs said...

I think this is the perfect this to strive for. It really doesn't have to be a dream. I really think you can do this, although it will take time and baby steps. You can do this hun, you really can!
*hugs*
Sarah