sooo i went to see my doc, who is an absolute lege anyway, and he totally thinks that i will wim an appeal, and its ridiculous and hes really not happy for me to go back to work until ive had some proper help, or else il just end up back here in a few months time.wise words, but hard to believe.
so hes gonna send off a med report for me and a supporting letter. The problem is the meantime, because they wont pay me anything until appeal paperwork processed, which could be up to 5 weeks (how does it take that long to click the box on the computer to re-release payment??!!)
Next thing to do was to go to the jobcentre and apply for a crisis loan form the social fund-and just for future reference guys-dont ever do this unless you are in the mood to be berated, want to feel like scum, or just completely worhless-but if so, this is the perfect way!haha
anyway important lesson learnt today-
the powers that be granted me an emergency payout of-wait for it-£6 to last be until tuesday, when i can apply again. apparantly you can feed yourself on this for 4 days really well, and pay your bills and rent also, and still have some change for a good night out!
oh how i laughed!
lol
so i think i have a plan. im going to totally pretend its normal to have voice in head telling you to not eat/purge and just generally cause you grief-cos well my mum seems to manage, and pretend that all of this shit didnt happen, and just forget it.and go out and either sell parts of my body, or get a full time job.i might put a kidney on ebay!
sound like a plan?!
if only i could actually forget...am seeing the vital flaw in this plan.ARRRRGGGGGG.
any suggestions on what the hell i can do very much appreciated, im thinking i should deal, stop moping about the past and get a job, and just carry on like before, put it all back in its box...
and im sorry for ALWAYS moaning, and i really appreciate all the lovely comments youve all left me.:)
see you all in moomin world!
xxx
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Hiii! Why don't you put up a little advert at a new agents to offer your service as a babysitter? It's so easy, you just sit and watch TV!
Also I am very into fashion. I love Ralph Lauren, Elie Saab and my favourite...CHANEL!
Motel dresses are cuteee (as are anything with bows on, I have 2 bows in my hair right now!)
Love Battle xxx
I got a Pucci dress from the women who I used to work for, she was amazing!!
And nautical is GREATTT. As are lacy tights. I'm also quite into neutrals, if I wasn't so damn pale I would wear them a lot! Have you heard of the make Hoss Intropia?
I will definatly be checking out your fashion blog!
Love Battle xxxx
£6!?! wtf? our benefits system stinks, and jobseekers is just as bad for people looking down at you - I had a back-to-work session today and it was the most patronising thing ever.
Your health needs to come first, and if you're not ready to go back to work, then the state needs to help you.
I wish I knew what to suggest about the money situation, other than try some charities/helplines and see if there is anywhere else you can get money from cos £6 is taking the piss.
Take care of yourself my dear
Sarah x
I just got a Hoss Intropia skirt on sale from £115 to £55. I'm a little bit in love with it.
I am loooving big heels...like the massssssive ones!
Ohh that's so lovely of your brother, and the dress sounds lush!
Love Battle xx
ps My email is ellie_notts@hotmail.com
No probs chick :-) And moan away - it helps to write down your troubles I always find plus you always seem to manage a cheeky dash of humour, even when you are having a hard time, which is one thing I really like about you!
It's a good job there's some other help you can get...just think...things can only get better from here onwards. You deserve a bit of luck, and I'm sure you'll get through all this a stronger person.
Sarah x
awww hun I'm sorry your having such a horrible time write now. God, I would be a screaming puddle on the floor. I hope you've managed to get some kind of assistance money wise as OH MY GOD I cannot believe they would only give you that amount of money when you ask for a loan. what morons. If you need to vent or chat please email me okay!
*hugest ever hugs*
Sarah
haha sairs, am clevery disguised screaming puddle on floor!xxx
6 pounds??? That's outrageous. Someone should be embarrassed to even suggest that. Anyway, I'm glad your doctor supports you and hopefully you can get this appeal pushed through soon.
I'm thinking about you!!
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