im too tired to fight anymore
its not getting me anywhere, just back to the start.
and the start is a place i dont like.so what do i do now?but i know how it goes.
im fed up with fighting, and putting a brave face on, to shield me from what has really happened.i could have a masters in denial by now.cos you know what, it never gets any better. i think im getting somewhere, sorting my life out,a nd then some other shit happens.
this isnt living
this is torure
i hate myself
cos i cant see how it gets better from this.
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I'm so, so sorry you're feeling this way right now. I've this way so many times before where I feel like I've tried and tried and there's no point. But as long as you're alive there's always hope of things getting better. You can come back from some very bad places and start feeling better. I know it seems so hard but there is hope and people do recover. You have so much to deal with right now, and I think it's ok to admit that it's hard and you're feeling really bad and not try to put on a brave face and pretend that things are fine. I'm sending you a huge e-hug.
I'm sorry hun. I wish I could say something to make you feel better and take it all away from you. I'm sorry the fighting is wearing you down. I really hope you get a break soon. I think you really are amazing with how much you've had happen in the last few weeks. I want you to know I think you are a really awesome and special person and even when you're sad, I want to keep up with knowing how you're going and to tell you I care!
*hugs*
Sarah
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