the only servicei ever trusted has let me down more than they will ever know.

Yesterday i endured 2 hours of a psyc assessment, in which time i was accused of lying about not recieving anyhelp. Clearly this pissed me off, as he didnt even have my notes.

he told me that the evening i was discharged-in fact he reassured me that HTT would make contact with me to check i was ok for the night. They hadnt called by nine, so i phoned them.I hadnt even been refered to them.

lying fucking bastard.

The person i spoke to from HTT tld me someone would call frist thing this morning to arrange to see me. 3pm rolls around, and no word.so i phone them, and they are busy and will get back to me. 5pm, still no call. so i phon them and they say i am not being seen today, well thanks for fucking telling me.

why cant someone help me please.

they are short staff-fine, i do get that. they said they have to prioritise-i also get that. however, considering i tried to kill muyself, was nearly sectioned and sent to the worlds most horrid psyc unit (well, before they decoded i was just making it all up, time wasting, attention seeking and fine) im pretty sure that counts as a fairly urgent referal.

and why couldnt they at least tell me this morn that they wouldnt see me. then i could have worled out a plan to help myself, gone to see my doc, gone to a and e for my bladder if i wasnt desperately waiting to see them.

the only service i have ever trusted has let me down more than they will ever know. the only people that ever helped wont even take me seriously.

I NEED SOME FUCKING HELP NOW

why cant i get it? even the retard that calls himself a psyc doc said the ed service should see me.

i have spent the afernoon looking uo the anatomy of my stomach. Next time, i know exactly where to cut, and then none of this will ever be a problem anymore.