in summary

Well, ive been discharged from HTT as they dont think its productive to try and talk about what i need to say in court, and that its totally not a problem that when i tell them i am existing on a combination of diazepam, painkillers and diet coke, im actually NOT joking. Because obviously bulimics cant go 5 minutes without binging.yuh. So i get to have more jolly chats with my CPN. last time i saw here she asked if id heard from my mum recently. So shes obviously as helpful as ronald without a macdonalds. Plus if i left a message for her to call me, id prob be waiting till september for her to bother to call me back. And their support WAS helping me. A fucking lot.But apparantly they cant find a 'therapeutic reason' to continue with me on the caseload. I'm so fucking sore cos ive got a horrible infection from SI, and am so swollen look like im about to give birth to an entire litter. Which i know is my own fault-i do-but its not really helping me deal. Im so miserable. And im so sick of fighting and fighting to get some support.

Its not fair and i cant do it anymore. I just really cant. Thanks guys, 2 weeks before i have to go to liverpool you leave me entirely fucked. and all they have to say is 'you can call out of hours', which means i have all day to wait til 9pm when i can talk to someone, who could have helped me at 9am.

I do so love mental health services. And if anyone would like to yell at them for me, that would be entirely great.