Im not going and im not bloody doing it. and I DO NOT have a guilty conscience.I'm just SICK of it. And im not sure how it fits in with my plans of managing to stay, uh alive, now i have no fucking support whatsoever.
Clearly, i dont have any choice-i have to go.But right now its v helpful to pretend that this is an option. So pretty please dont burst my bubble by pointing this out.
Got some info today from the crown court service people. They are going to put screens up, so i cant see HIM and he cant see me, but prosecuter, judge etc can. Public are going to get kicked out for prosecution testimonies, thank christ, at least his friends wont be in there at the time. I'm hoping they didnt thinkI was joking when I said I'd quite like them to have a puke bucket handy. I just looked up some stuff online from all the scary court websites, and i threw from anxiety as the page loaded. I swear if any of his scummy little friends say a word im going to go insane at them. Im literally praying that i dont see anyone i know from my time there. What if they hang around waiting for me come out? I'm officially the most unpopular girl in Liverpool. well, apart from Colleen Rooney. And other people with annoying accents.Even though other girls spoke up, HE has a lot of people vouching for him.
Fuckity Fuck
im not going.
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I'm really glad they're going to have the screens up for you. I'd ask them to give you an escort going in and out so that you don't have to worry about people harassing you. It's disgusting how people stick up for him.
I'm definitely thinking about you and you can email anytime you need to talk.
xoxo
Thank goodness for the screens, i agree with jess about the escort, im thinking of you and it sounds like your having a tough time there babe, you can get through it, if theres anyone who can it is you. email me any time too, miss ya and sending you so much love and light and strength. xxx
I agree with Lou Lou and Jessie. Screens, escort, get as much protection and support as you can during this difficult time. You absolutely do not deserve any of this ordeal, but the fact that you are standing up to this awful person is so very brave and admirable. You are standing up for what is right in the world, and not many people have the guts to do that.
You are amazing.
Sarah x
hun, I'm thinking of you. I am so glad about the screens too. Just know that I'm here if you need to email or vent or whatever.
*hugs*
Sarah
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