Ok, so im guessing me going on and on about this is getting pretty boring now. But hey, im writing this for me, and its what i need to think about, sooo (sometimes i have to remind myself its ok to write what i need to).
If I dont go, im gonna be in mega shit. In fact, as much as i'd like it to be, not going isnt actually an option now.Bollocks.
But if i do go, well, i'm pretty much going to wish i were dead, and to be honest, i dont think im doing that great a job convincng myself to do otherwise. I dont really know how i feel-which is the problem. I just dont give a shit about anything really. And that kind of 'well, whatever' attitude has got me into a lot of problems with SI, and it isnt getting any better. So fuck knows what il ebd up doing in an attempt to A)feel something physical, rather than whats going on in my weirdo head, B)take my thougts away from all of it, cos it hurts so freaking much, and C)well, do what i feel i deserve.for messing everything up.
I cannot do this.but i dont have any choice.
sounds familiar, oh the irony.
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It's such a difficult situation, and I really wish you didn't have to be in it. However, if you do go, at least you have a chance of getting some closure?
You don't deserve all this pain and you haven't messed up. You've been a victim of really unfortunate circumstances, and I'm convinced that there are better times for you ahead.
Don't give up hope chick
Sarah x
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