How to unscrew-up my life right now, in some not so easy steps

1.email my horrible tutor and explain that I just cant come into college right now, and all that needs doing to my folders is to photocopy like 2 pages, and beg him to do it for me. I cannot deal with seeing him in person right now, because i just find him rude and insulting. So i think this might be the best plan. And i really dont need any m ore shit right now. Though if he refuses (likely), im gonna have to go in.yay.

2.Sort out my college fees. An administation fuck up on the part of jobcentre plus means my course fees were not payed. As part of one of their many schemes to avoid paying you any sickness benefit, they offer monet towards re-training courses, like mine. Apparantly they havny paid their share. And It all goets moderated on friday. FUCK. Nothing like a bit of notice.

3.Fill in yet more medical forms for uni, and the disability forms also. because bulimia makes me disabled apparantly.yuh.

4.Fill in more stuff for the NHS bursary forms

5.Fill in another lot of student loan forms, as a 'clerical error' means my originals were not processed.This i can well belive, and was expected-it seems to have happened to everyonme from cornwall this year!

6.Phone the prosecuters office to confirm some stuff. Becasue if they oleave one more message on my answer phone to call them im going to go insane-yes i will call you back-but jeez, give me a chance to get my head together.

7.photocopy 'eveidence that im crazy' letter from CPN to attatch to various forms.

8.Phone jobcentre for usual 'why the fuck havnt you payed me conversation.then have to apply for a crisis loan when they still fail to do so'.

OMG AAARRRRGGGG

remember that breathing is a self indulgent waste of time i cannot afford.

8.Try and convince HTT to take me back on their caseload.

9.Beg docs receptionist to give me an appt some time this year.preferably NOW.

busy day then