I've been thinking, and well basically, well it kinda comes down to whether i hate ED more than i feel i hate myself...thats kinda like a big thing in recovery, finding your self worth again.
I want to recover to find out who i am away from ED, because i'm not living my life, im living ED's, and, well, i guess i deserve that chance to find out what things will be like. You have to want to get better for yourself, and not just to please others-and the thing is, my recovery is all about me now. I mean, obviously i care about my friends a lot, but i want to get better for me now. I want to go and enjoy myself. I want to be sociable again. I want to go away to uni and do what i have wanted to do for a long time, and do it might way. I want to prove to myself that I can do it.
Nice quote from Rachel at wefreedomfighters on youtube-
'asking why recover is like asking a seed why grow'
I dont want to live amonst the remains of my past and fight my way anymore,i want to make My own future.
The futures bright... the futures MINE(not orange!)
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