Running in circles

and back to the start again! this is so frustrating-counselling service think i need to see ED team, ED team think im too 'risky and depressed', so want me to see counsellers...and on it goes this is so BORING.

Someone from the ED service phoned the other day-said i was too depressed, and that by binge/purgeng couldnt be too bad, as not on higher dose of prozac(because my doc wanted to ease dose up over a few months) and that they couldnt help me while i was stressed out and depressed-well, yeh, duh cos i keep hitting the same brick wall with trying to get some sort of therpay.i dont give a cak what service provides it..i just want to talk to someone about all this stuff in my head. She told me to just 'eat sensibly' which, yeh im trying to do! But when you grew up watching your mum get sicker and sicker with anorexia, and you got fed when she remembered, or got given whatever fad she was going through at the time, or nothing.so yes, i am kinda confused about what the heck im supposed to eat. And surely depression and ED run hand in hand.

i dunno, im so sick of getting passed from person to person and never getting anywhere.
But i want to ge better for me, sp i can do all the things i feel i cant do right now, and i want to be helpful. and myself, not ED. So i guess il figure out my own way of working through this-at the end of the day, its all about fighting ED!

xxx