because its like everyday is the same. And it goes like this-i get up, i have breakfast i purge.i feel guilty for purging, and end up in this cycle of eat-purge-eat all day until im exhausted. I try to do college work but im too knackered and distracted. I try to stick to a food plan and mess it up. right now i hurt so much thinking about things that i dont know how to cope.I guess thats why i havnt written for a few days-i dont think theres anything really left to say. I feel sick.And thas the honest truth.I feel like ed's pulling me into a headlock and strangling me because hes hita weak spot. I pretend and i pretend that everything is ok, and is going to be fine, but what if its not? I want to get better but i dont know how to move forward anymore. How can i move back to london for uni in september when im still the sameperson i was when i left.
feel useless and kinda defeated right now
xxx
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keep with the hope there are always better days and if not there is always something gd in the day = looking at all the pretty things in accessorize sale tomorrow xxx
woohoo, love accessorize. ok i wrote a massive long comment somewhere else on yur blog so i didnt take up your whole page. you can do this girl. kia kaha, be strong. dont write today off. start now. dont wait till tomrrow. think of 5 things you are grateful for, and reasons you want to recover and read my long long comment when you can. ha
xxxxxxx
loubie.
i was feeling like this the other day remember and you wrote on my post and i felt strength from that, thank you, but tel you what today i am feeling better. this too shall pass, and who knows what tomorrow will be like.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iKuUMPGwhuM
check this nz tune, shes our soul queen
babe you got to think of the positive bits and I know it's hard gorgeous...did you used to have breakfast?? I mean thats positive right there!! Forget the fact you purged....you ate in the first place...and thats a step to controlling your ed.
Take each day as it comes babe...I know you can do it...and one day you will see that for yoursef
Love you bird
xoxoxox
i sent you an email chick!!!!!
xxx
lou
thanks for all the lovely comments everyone:)
hahaha lou lou i sent you an epic back!xxx
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