so-this is where i leave my story (an anti fairytale)

so-it went a bit like that

and this is where im going to leave it. I thought a lot about whether to delete this blog in its entireity, but then thougth that woud be a bit like deleting my life. And then i thought id just make it a private journal-but-everyone has a story to tell. and i rekon there are a lot of people that dont know where to begin. So, im going to leave it here, and hope that anyone that stumbles across it realises that the hard bit is starting to talk. And that keeping everything inside only really hurts you more. So this blog is for anyone that has noone to listen-I thought i didnt either, but i found that if you can talk, then there is always someone, somewere that is willing to help.And if that seems to hard to believe-well just look at all the support i got here on my blog.

Ed will never be your friend, and self harm will get never get you anywhere new. something else i ultimately learnt-

when you have nothing left to lose, then surely all you can do is gain.

 If your wondering-this is what happened next-

the jobcentre still suck, and still havent grasped the fairly fundamental flaw in sending someone a letter to ask then to confirm their correct address. I saw my doctor and cpn yesterday, and have been refered to Home treatment team AGAIN. so no doubt i'm in for more playdough. The manager at the CMHT finally read my complaint letter-and ive been put on the waiting list for therapy with the ED service. I have absolute faith in the fact that my first appointment will coincide with me moving to London! Oh yeh, London. watch out cos im coming Baaaaaack!St Georges here i come!well, if i ever finish my coursework. I'm going for a scan later, to check that my bowel is healing up properly, and that the infection is getting better. im no longer held together by bits of blue string! and just in case your interested, im listening to the backstreet boys, whilst wearing a skirt that looks like it probably belonged to someones granny.and a bow.of course a bow. ooh, and i have a date with the lovely boy i mentioned before i lost the plot bigstyle lol. The courtcase is coming up really soon, and im pretty scared. But itl be ok-cos this time, being there, im the one in control. and he's the one that doesnt know whats coming. Oh, and my golfish keep getting it on. and that just about sums me up!

Read the blogs in my blogrole, cos these people rocked my life. Especially Loubie, jessie, katie, sarah, jennifer, ellie, sarah, nicole, elk and cass.

if you found this, and need someone to listen, my email is pinkpixie-dust@hotmail.co.uk

love vics xxx
ps-everyone needs a bow in their life.
pps-never mention the name of your college on your blog!