ok, so i lasted a really long time without posting.
i kinda felt like i was cutting my arm off or something by not having my blog anymore. cos, really its the only support and outlet i have. But maybe i need to start being a little less dependent on it, if that makes sense.im not sure. Thing is, writing posts does let me think, and get it out, but the problem is, that i cant then get it out of my head,and its REALLY fuelling my SI cycle at the moment. And i cant read posts cos i feel sone shaky and anxious about everything, i dont actually know what might trigger me.which is stupid, but there you go. i just thought id try and explain my logic a little-for myself more than anything. its weird, cos im about to go to bed, and thats when i normally post, and i really felt weird for a minute.talk about blog dependency!
and i think writing about how crappy and mushy i feel might actually be making me dwell on it more.is that denial?
could well be. But i think i need to see for a while. im going to the docs tomorow, and im actually going to beg him to A) give me some decent painkillers, B) get me on a drip to get rid of this nasty infection before i like die or something (or shoot myself.cos itd be less painfull.excuse the very bad humour) and C)GET ME SOME HELP NOW. and im not budging until he does all three.
anyhow, please stay in touch my lovlies.email me anytime, and im always on facebook avoiding my coursework.cos i really think its YOU guys im missing here!and not my blog.dunno.
anyway, love you all, and i feel better now ive made this decision a little more rationally
so i might be around, or i might not be. I just dodnt want anyone to worry, considering what ive been up to of late.cos id hate to do that.
love to everyone
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Definitely a good idea to be assertive with the doctor, it must be so horrible to be in so much pain.
As for the blogging, you have to look after yourself, and if that means not reading certain/all blogs, even not posting in your own then do it.
Alternatively, you could experiment with some different themes for what you post about, like maybe post some random funny pics, or quotes or something that gives you a bit of a relief? Just ideas anyway.
Whatever happens with the blog, please stay in touch, so if I don't see you blogging I might be tempted to annoy you with emails/fb messages ;)
Sarah x
You put that doctor straight. As Sarah says, be so damn assertive he can't say no!
With blogging, do whatever feels best for you. I will be doing some facebook stalkerige (nice word eh?)later.
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