sicky ickyness

I swear i have never felt this spun out and ill in my life. The whole sick/dizzy/withdrawel thing is actually getting worse, which is kind of weird. someone or something make this go away pleeeeease. seriously please. I feel so bloody horrible. All ive done for days is puke, and im so fed up with this. I dont need it right now, ive got tons of uni work to do, and at the moment in skipping pout of lectures and tutorials every 5 minutes to throw up, cry or spaz out from dizzyness. I look like im trying to come off crack or something. ARG.

I called my GP today-after trying and failing to get an appointment for the next bloody WEEK (even telling the receptionist it was REALLY IMPORTANT) and finally managed to convince the receptionist to ask him to call me-which he did.great. Then he told me that he wasnt sure what was causing it, and did i want to just take the sertraline again?

i mean IS IT JUST BE OR FOR FUCKS SAKE!!!!THE WHOLE POINT WAS THAT SERTRALINE WASNT HELPING.BUT ID REALLY LIKE TO KNOW IF ITS USUAL TO GO THIS BATSHIT INSANE FROM WITHDRAWEL, OR IF ITS THE NEW MEDS THANK YOU PLEASE.

i mean, ok to hids credit, at least he didnt lie and make up a load of shit. but why the fuck would i just want to start taking the sertraline again?i just dont see the logic there. cois id only have to go through this again in a couple of weeks or whatever. He told me to call the CMHT, because he isnt really that familiar with trazodone-fairplay, again, but then the CMHT are like, sorry the doc u saw here wont be able to return your call until the end of the week-by WHICH TIME I MIGHT AS WELL JUST FUCKING WAIT TIL I SEE HIM THE WEEK AFTER.

FOR FUCK SAKE! why dont people listen.everytime my meds change this happens, and there answer is to just give my massive amounts of diazepma to cope with it, which just makes me feel MORE SICK. and what part of making someone who felt shit in the first place feel even shitter by giving them crazy meds makes any logical sense anyway?i mean, someone, please enlighten me.

i cant do this.it never gets any better.ever. i feel like shit, i have to fight to get back it to services-old territory, i should be used to this.they change my meds, surprise surprise.and i feel even shitter. How come some people actually get support for this bit. cos i swear to god i wish people would actually FUCKING REALISE I MEAN IT WHEN I SAY I CANT COPE ANYMORE.