angsty-ness

I have been a pretty crap blog buddy of late. Im sorry for all the comments i havnt left. Ive been reading, but dont feel like i have anything useful to say anymore. Also, it might not sound like it most of the time, but i really DO want to get better. I just dont see the sense in not writing how i really feel in the place i found to do just that. Just to clear that up.

Soo worried and unsettled right now. My halls flatmates are working my every last nerve, and i wish they would just GO.AWAY. I mean do they really NEED to have loud shouty arguments outside my door at 3am every single night? and im going to go fucking mental if they keep using and not washing up my pots and plates etc. I dont eat meat, therefore dont want meat burnt on to my pans. thats fair right? and i have asked sooo many times for them not to do it and they still carry on. it really pisses me off. And these are people that are older than me! and it doesnt matter what obscure time i try and sneak in the kitchen and cook, the time i have washed up my stuff, cooked and washed up again before scuttling back to my room with my food, they always seem toHAVE to appear. i mean seriously, your in there all day, could you really not just FUCK OFF for half an hour and leave me alone?I cant keep my stuff in my room, cos i have no space for it. im just soo sick of people being so inconsiderate. one of the guys decided to cut up a chcken on the freaking table and leave it all everywhere while he went to chat on his phone. its gross, and it really upsets me-im not all animal rightsy vege-but i just dont like handling meat, and i dont see why he couldnt have just done it in the board on the worksurface??ARG. they all hangout in the kitchen and have people over all the time. so it gets to about 2am before i can eat most days anyway and i just wish they would fuck off for a little while.we're not all litte miss/mr socialable you know.some of us like a bit of piece and quiet.