Why do those with bulimia not get taken as seriously as those with anorexia? Bulimia has just as dangerous consequences, and yes, i do realise what the stats are for Anorexic deaths (funnily enough), and that being seriously underweight has severe implications- but so does tearing your oesophagus, or having an electrolye imbalance.
So why is it that if i were, say, 5 stone lighter id have all the help in the world, but because im an average weight i have to wait soo long for help. Bulimia is just as much as problem.
I say this because once AGAIN after being promised help, and desperately trying to hang on over the weekend, ive been pushed aside again. because someone of a lower weight needed the bed. I was supposed to be admitted today in an attemp to help my stop the vomitting at such high levels. So when I got a call saying that they wouldnt be able to do anything for 2 weeks-when they could admit me for 4 weeks to the day unit to help stabalise things-i wasnt too happy. 2 weeks is a long time when you feel like your in hell. and im just sick of getting promised things that never happen. I've still got really bad chests pains, i still feel triggered to hell by just about everything, and am stuck in a horrible cycle of flashbacks and binge/purge/cut behaviours. Im really trying to stop and get out of it, but i cant, and i dont think i can go on like this for 2 more weeks.
First day back at uni tomorow and i cant even go.things were supposed to be better this term and ive just fucked it all up.again.
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Gah dude, I'm really sorry to hear that the EDU are messing you about :( if it's any consolation things are usually far more complicated than lower weight = quicker bed, blood work is the most important factor in most admissions, whether the bloods are screwed due to weight or purging. I mean, unless someone is at an about-to-die BMI they won't be hospitalised anyway. People at low weights get messed around too, one of my friends had a fricking heart attack and still had to wait a week for a bed. The NHS just absolutely suck at dealing with eating disorders. I really, really hope they get their game together soon so you can get your purging under control <3
I explained the anorexia/bulimia issue to a lecturer last year, he couldnt believe it, but equally he didnt know how dangerous bulimia is. It annoys me so much, its like hi, you dont look too bad so if we dont do anything no-one can yell too loud because they wont notice. I think its ridiculous,my cynical mind says people find looking at skeletal thin people offensive so anorexia gets more treatment, i also think its so sad that people who have tried to break down the stigma have been ridiculed because of their illness.
Depending on where you are, could you look in to getting an advocate, i know various chairities offer it, someone who will fight for you, because i dont know about you, but i get tired of fighting for myself at times, and wish someone who do abit of it for me.
I dont think you've fucked up this term already, it hasnt even started, and yes it might not be a great one if you're looking at IP but as the cliche goes, your degree can wait, your health cant.
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I don't know what to say to this, except that you're absolutely right, and I'm sorry this is happening to you.
It happened to me as well. I have been both anorexic and bulimic, and bulimia was by far the most severe of the two illnesses in my case. Yet the support I got was tied to my weight, even though I was mentally much more stable as an anorexic with a BMI of 16 than I was as a bulimic with a BMI of 22. Not that I didn't have problems as an anorexic. But the bulimia was worse.
I wish they could recognise it.
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