firstly, i just have to get this out of my system-

OMG OMG OMG OMACTUALGOD!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

KINGS OF LEON ARE PLAYING IN HIDE PARK THIS JUNE!!!!!!!!!
OMG!!!!THIS IS LIKE THE OST EXCITING THING EVER!!!!!!

have decided that the only thing i can do is to sell a kidney or two on ebay, and throw in my liver too, because i HAVE to be there!!cos how else am i going to have caleb's lovechild? and besides, its high time i saw them, being there most longstanding and devoted fan in the world ever!i loved them when they were all hairy and unknown when 'red moring light' first came out. and FANS! i listen to that song for hours on repeat, no kidding, ask all my neighbours ive had since that song came out lol. KINGS OF LEON!PLAYING THE BEST GIG VENUE KNOWN TO MAN KIND!!

i will find a way of being there!dammit, il sell all my limbs too :P

anyway, moving on. (but i will be back to KOL, you can count on it!) so, on sat i went to the docs, and not only was she so crap she didnt give me any painkillers, she is officially stupid. turns out i was right when i thought the op wound wasnt looking too good. its got a mahussive haemotoma under it, which has made my whole tummy turn pretty much solid, and the skin staples are straining open under the pressure. i bloody knew it wasnt right, but she wouldnt listen to me!also, slightly worringly, i cant feel half my leg. they said there would prob be nerve damage, which would recover in time, cos i cant feel anyone touching my skin across my thigh, all the way around. but the area this is has got quite a bit bigger over the last day or so.im hoping its because of all the pressure from the gunk trapped under the wound. its driving me mad, cos i get these weird itchy sensations, and sometimes it randomly feels like someone is pouring hot liquid over it. So i had to go back to A&E today and they literally popped me!was sooooo gross. have now got industrial strength antibiotics, and if itsd not looking better by thursday, it has to be surgically drained.how fun, cant wait. hmn, maybe i should look online and see if anyone has a fetish for pus...i could supply in return for kol hahahahaha

man i feel shit. I feel really ill and sore from being all infected.ewww. the guy in the room next to me asked if i could die quietly yesterday, cos he was trying to study hahaha. said he would go and get me some bloody painkillers himself if it ment id stop crying all night, cos 'i cant take hearing a girl crying anymore, its making me feel all soppy!'hahaahhaahahahhahahahahhahahahahaah. oopsy. i was in a bit of a state night before last though.it hurt SO MUCH and then i just randomly started throwing up everywhere, bathroo was like swimming pool of vomit in about 5 mins, was sooo gross.which we can now put down to having a temp from the infection.

i got cleared to start back at uni yesterday eveing, so today was my first day back, which was REALLY scary. we had practicals this morning, so couldnt even hide in the corner of a lecture theatre, and i nearly bottled it and didnt go, but was glad i did. the little gang that i hang out with (the flatmates of the girl that called the ambulance) were all lovely, and were like 'long time no see', and gave me a hug, and were just normal. and one fo the girls who caqme to see me in hosp was in my prac group and said it was really nice to see me, and plonked herself next to me, which made me feel better. and a girl that i got the worst fit of giggles with in a lecture a the beginning of term paired up with me, so it was ok in the end. i missed so much work, but i do know how to assess a shoulder join for full range of movement lol. oh, and ive made George, my skeleton (physio's get a life sized skeleton to play with over the year) a hat to keep him warm for winter.love george lol. we had a little chat earlier, and he told me that he would like a monocle. i can just see it, rekon george was v clever and vv dignified man who behaved impecably at all times. i've become quite attatched to him of late, may have to forfit my £25 deposit and keep him at the end of the year hahaha. think should try and get him a suit from charity shop also, he'd like that :)

haha i looked at my blog stats the other day, and some brave sole has been reading my blog from the begining. I cant even understand the dodgy spelling in half my posts, so dont know hw anyone could want to read em all hahaha, and seriously, its the most depressing thing in the world.

right, must do some reading for tomorow (aka put my kidney up for sale on ebay)

xxxx