what to make of it?pass.

i went to see GP today, and at this surgery you dont have a specific doc, just whoever is on duty. todays delightful doctor told me to 'just look at all my nasty scars and think how unattractive they are next time i want to do any of that silly cutting business'.wtf. anyway, she then made me go to the walk in centre at the hosp cos they didnt have a nurse free to take the skin clips out (wtf). so after waiting 3 hours there (bye bye afternoon lectures-no wonder im so fucking behind) they get taking out and it hurt so much, cos of all the pressure from the infection i actually couldnt take it. all of the skin and on my stomach and down my thigh, and round my back is burning hot-you can feel the heat coming off it over the top of a jumper!-so even touching the skin around it is painful, and makes me want to vomit, let alone anything else. they took the last clipout and the wound burst open and all this fluid came flooding out, so much of it that it filled a freaking jug (people i told you it hurt!how did the doc on saturday miss this???)so they sent me back to A&E where i had to wait another 2 hours for the surgical team to come and look. the same dudes who did the operation, coincidently. and very unethically, they were like 'how the hell have you been to the GP twice, and A&E on tuesday and NOONE has refered you back to us, cnsidering you have a massive abscess right nest to an artery repair.hello, people, septacaemia risk x 1 million'. but now the fluid is continuosly pouring out (and very attractive it is too) i can put knickers on without crying from having something touching my skin, which is def progress me thinks. its been driving me actualy crazy every time i put a dressing on it, clothes on, just from touching the skin near it and the pressure literally made me sob. so i might even be able t go to slepp tonight without waking up a sweaty betty and puking from infection-ness cos its all leaking out baby!

sleepy sleepy

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