my life be like!

Okay, so at the moment its a fine line between me eating the contents of my freezer and then having a very long date with my bathroom, or writing about whats going on...and im guessing this is by far the better option in the long run:)
so here goes AAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGG
its amazing what you can block out until you are forced to remember. But this time, I'M in charge, NOT Ed, so its going to go like this. I know what i need to do, and i need to stick to that, and i need to stick to what i know is right for me. So im not going to chicken out and take the easy way and just agree with my mum. I do need help, and im going to get it for myself, so i can get out of this hole. SO i am going to go to the consult for the clinic im thinking of going IP, and it doesnt matter a shred what she thinks, because its just her own denial of her own problems, and im not going through that again.

xxx