This is why I hate Ed

Dear Ed. I hate you and you manipulative ways. I hate how you turn everything into a negative. I hate the hold you have over me, and I hate how you keep on tightening your grip. You make me hate myself from the inside out. You neer want me to be happy, or to enjoy even the simplest thing, because you have to have my full attention, and you need the spotlight. Why cant you just let me be. My thoughts aren't even my own anymore, so twisted up in yours until I cant tell them appart. i dont know who I am without you, but you repulse me. I hate the way you change the goalposts to fit in with your needs. I hate that we just dont agree on whats best for me, until i just follow you cue. I hate how ill you have made me. I feel useless and worthless, and now I cant even keep you happy, the one thing I could do. I'm always there for you(I have no choice), but what do you do for me?you make me hate myself more and more. Yes, you took away the bad things, yes you made me cope.

But has it reaaly now come to this? I don't have the energy to fight youanymore, but I cant bear to play your game, and be your slave. I hate that this is all I feel able to do.

I hate you Ed.