my weight
How big I look
how fat I feel
food
losing weight
keeping Ed happy
playing by the rules
consequences
i think they are all the same thing.this is all i feel my life is about. i dont want this anymore, it makes me so unhappy, but im so tired of pushing then thumping back way down to the ground.
im sorry.i really wanted to write positively about kicking back at Ed, but its all so difficult right now.It even feels hard to write anti Ed stuff.so baby steps again.
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ive just re-read this.
Its funny how Ed makes you think replacing you original issues with a weight game is a much better idea. dont think im mocking people-im not, but if i had had any idea that it woud turn out like this...well maybe i would have been able to talk about hings years ago.
xxx
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