ahhhh... now it all makes sense....

I haven't been going insane, just cos, well, I am-I've been going nuts because apparantly I am an incubator for every infection known to Treliske hospital. If you've ever wondered-fact-if your temperature gets high cos your all infected and manky, you literally go bat shit insane from the pain of it.

Its quite reasuuring to know there is a medical reason as to why i feel like i want to die, rather than just my brain telling me i want to die. Gives me some space to think, y'know.

Total infection count
- I mega infected wound. which, ok, clearly i didnt really help with this one. But funnily enough, having the dresses changed by a nurse on a soaking wet bed (my cath bag sorung a leak, having not been emptied for so long, it decided to empty itself) didnt really improve the situation.
-Generalised ickyness from above infection spread across entire tummy.
-A kidney infection. Probably caused by their inability to realise my kidneys are not designed to continuosly be forced to hold 2 litres of pee.
-Tonsilitis, im sure i can think of a way to blame them for that. And a gammy ear infection, dont forget that one!

I dont feel very well.

I am incubating every germ known to mankind right now. Oh?and the reason i still cant pee?they failed to realise that part of my muscle was some place it really shouldnt have been.

But hey, at least my CPN cant whine that im just being miserable now-who the heck wouldnt be!!

I want drugs and i want lots of them, NOW!