why do people even bother asking when they dont want to know the real answer!i can count on one hand the people that would actually care what the answer is. But even then, i cant always say it.
so here it is.NO, im not alright, and im sorry to be all negative, but you know what, im sick of pretending to be ok, when actually im falling apart inside.
I hate ED, but im scared to break the rules. I want to be better, but im scared.does that make me a bad person? I dont feel like i can do this. what if im actually nothing without ED? IM not pro ED in the slightest-just to make this clear, im just frightenend and unsure and overwhelmed. And now im stuck in a really bad restriction phase again, which makes it even worse, cos i dont want to be like this. im so messed up.:( any advice always appreciated
xxx
Irregular Choice Festive Footwear 2022: Day 20
3 years ago
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Oh hun sounds like you need support and hugs! This is such a treacherous road. You will fall many times in recovery but it does not equal relapse. You must fight it by reaching out and not isolating like Ed wants.
Are you in therapy? group? trusted friend, family?
I sold stuff on ebay and was able to see my therapist today and so thankfuul because i have such a connection with her and she holds me accountable as i have been struggling too with restricting.
please don't isolate!
((hugs))
Brandee
Baby doll :( *hugs*
Its ok to be scared and frightened darling...thats ok...because I'm telling you it is. You trust me right hun??
You don't need to be better..you are an amazing person..I love you to pieces and it saddens me so to hear you are struggling and I wish I could take the pain away.
You are SO MUCH without your ED!! You are Vic...my beautiful best gal, who has a wicked dress sense, who keeps me laughing because we can be crazy together, who loves KOL and is in love with Caleb. You my Vicki who has proved so much to me but being her, by doing so many things to beat ED. I've seen it. And you CAN do it. Because you are more than ED babe.
Its ok to feel this way and as soon as you wanna talk to me about it if you do, I'm here ok hun??
Love you darling
xoxoxoxoxooxx
thankyou
xxx
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