It's cos i want my mum.
I feel different about mum now. I think before, when it first happened, I was very angry, and couldnt see anything beyond that. And now, im so so sad. We never had the chance to put things right. i dont know if they ever could have been worked out-all the stuff that was there, in between us. But the last time we spoke we literally just screamed at eachother. She told me she hated me, I told her she ruined everything, ans then she was dead.
Im really really sad. I think the anger is slipping away, and `i dont know what to do with this new set of feelings.
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Oh lovely Vics, I can't imagine how hard this must be, grief is awful.
Thinking of you lovely.
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as hard as it is, I would say try not to hide from these feelings, they're shitty, and bollocks, but they're natural, human too.
thinking of you
I have no idea what to say, and maybe saying anything is the wrong approach anyway. I haven't been through what you are going through, and all I want to do is smother you in a hug, or sit quietly and let you be. Offer you a safe place.
Perhaps it is ok to feel these things, as Ducky said. Maybe there is a natural reason why they are there, and perhaps they aren't meant to be fought against?
I may be out of line here, but have you ever considered going to some sort of grieving/bereavement group? There may be people who'll know how to help you cope with this new set of feelings?
Please be safe, kitten.
Massive bigsafewarmhugs.
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What you said was plenty meaningful :)
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I love you so much, ((hugs)) am always here for you loves times a thousand and doubled xxx
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