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Friday, 22 April 2011

a lesson in blatent stupidity parts 1 and 2...

1. puking so much that you need potassium replacement intravenous therapy. distinctly NOT fun. especially because the reason you got into such a state was that you have huge amounts of work to do, and an exam in 3 days and not enough time, and now you have spent what time you did have in hospital. well DONE! Also was made to drink this nasty potassium stuff, and its so bad, it actually made me vomit, which is all really rather ironic, dont you think?

2. getting upset that you have zero friends, then finding out the ones you thought you had hate you anyway cos your a douche who does the above. Then see above.

theres more, but im too depressed to carry on writing how bloody shite i am.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

I can certainly relate to that- self harming because of stress over Uni work and then ending up with even less time through self destruction. *hugs*

Katie said...

*hugs* from here too love. You're not a douche and you couldn't be if you tried. Well, actually I guess you could pretend to be a douche, but it wouldn't change the fact that you are essentially a very un-douchy person. You're a lege, regardless of your struggles with mental health stuff. I'm glad the hospital got your potassium sorted out anyway <3

battleinmind said...

Oh hunny I'm so sorry your stress levels are so high. You're NOT a douche. And we don't hate you.



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