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Sunday, 10 April 2011

Guilt

i wrote a post yesterday about some of the things ive been thinking, memories of me and mum. and after leaving it up for a few hours, i deleted it. 

because i felt so overwhelmed with guilt. See, i hadnt intended it to be a bitch fest, but thats exactly what it sounded like.

and im not angry about those things right now, im just really upset that they happened at all. And i couldnt stand it to be seen in the light it kind of seemed.

All the same though, my brain hurts.

xxx

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

I feel really useless when I comment on your blog. I don't want to be "that friend" who deserts people when bad things happen because they don't know what to say, but equally everything I can think of to say sounds trite and ridiculous. So I want to apologise for not always knowing wtf to say, and tell you that I think about you a lot <3 wish I could give you a hug xxx

elk said...

^ I second what Katie said. You are in my thoughts, even though I don't have any words.
please take care xxxx