there's a really big wall in my way.or a rock.or something.

I dont like my blog anymore. It seems so wholey self indulgent, and then I just end up feeling guilty for writing anything. Or i cant manage to write how im feeling, cos the words for that dont really exist.

maybe i just have to go back to pretending everything is ok for a while, because im too tired for this.

and i really dont have anything to say.

i think im taking a break, and i dont know if im going to be back here.

love

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