turns out all i needed to do was ask (again)

On monday im going into an inpatient ED unit for the 6 weeks between now and starting at the day unit mid september.

According to NHS and NICE guidlines, you have to really A)properly crazy, or B) totally suicidal for them to consider inpatient treatment for Bulimia, so i guess erm, thats me!

this is something i asked about months ago, but was told it wasnt suitable, as my depression was outweighing my ED. Which is crap anyway, cos the worse the ED gets, the more depressed you get. My care coordinator has been trying to convince me to stay on a general mental health ward for the last month or so, after that fun time i got sectioned and made to do so. I wouldnt agree, because having been inpatient in that setting before-it just makes things worse. Ad they dont have real knowledge or understanding of ED's, you get away with everything-which is exactly what i do, because ed behaviour is the only thing making a scary situation like that seem safe. And, like, i dont have psychosis, so why stick me on a ward with staff who have only been trained in psychotic disorders?makes no sense.

Anyhow, my care cordinator sat me down, and told me i had to start talking fast about what i thought might help me, cos they were seriously thinking about a mental health assessment-which was gonna end with a really long section-to make me stay in, cos they all thought i was planning to do myself in. So i got really brave, and told her the only thing i would agree to was something that would actually help me-rather than just make me feel worse afterward-and said if they wanted me inpatient-fine, but it would have to be on the ED ward. because if i could eat, i might start feeling a little more saner. Actually she agreed this didnt sound unreasonable, and said she would talk to the ed team, but that things prob wouldnt happen in a hurry.

so i nearly died of shock when my lovely psycotherapist called today to ask me to come in for my appointment half an hour earlier, so we could meet with the ward consultant. and only 2 days later!!!shockingly fast!they must be worried lol.i think my care coordinator just wants me in somewhere, so i guess they thought it for the best or something. They said they had talked with the ward, and i could go in, could have gone tomorow, but we decided it would be better to wait til mon-less rushed, and more time to sort things out. so we had a bit of a chat about how all the other patients are recovering from anorexia, and would that make me feel weird, and a bit about how i would totally hate it (no kidding) but i would have to try and stick it out. im going in voluntarily, but they said if i tried to leave, and they doubted i could keep myself safe, they would consider making me stay. funtimes lol. so in essence, there goes my summer!

but at least someone finally got a clue and did something helpful!