more maths problems...

so, my doctor has finally been brilliant/stupid enough to give me some useful drugs. this makes me happy, as they were exactly what i needed. i feel so much better now knowing that i actually have the means to overdose properly.

i have just spent the evening calculating drug doses. who knew all the crap they teach you at school would actually be useful someday.

i think i get a little bit more fucked up everyday. does anyone else feel like that? its not that im intending to TAKE them...its just it makes me feel a calmer knowing i have them.

i cannot remember the last time i felt normal. this is BAD.