So, ive got funding from my local authority to go back to the place i went to over the summer, to do a longer stay there, but they currently dont have any space. which is ok, because my plan is to try and finish my last year if uni, and then go back there to do a really intensive programme based around the trauma work i need to do.
In the meantime, im going back to the day unit at my local service for a short admission (6-8 weeks) to try and sort my bloods out and help with the other symptoms ive been struggling with and my really low mood, the idea being to 'patch me up a bit' for the meantime. I'm not quite sure how i feel about this. On the one hand, its a relief, because i know i will manage to eat there. on the other, i feel like im going backwards, considering i did a recovery programme there - feel like ive let all the staff down.
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I've always thought the hardest part is dealing with the why; so the trauma work. So many times during treatment I was frustrated by the fact that I knew why I was this way but couldnt change.
I dont think you've let anyone down instead you've shown that life is hard but that you will keep going no matter what.
I have a friend who will die soon and having just been left utterly hopeless by her outlook I found this which reminded me, sometimes there is an alternative to going backwards and I wish you all the luck and hope for the next stage of your journey.
You didnt get this unwell overnight, you won't recover overnight either.
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