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Monday, 30 December 2013

chronic fatigue

I really dislike wishy-washy diagnosis's. So the whole 'chronic fatigue' thing doesn't sit well with me. Mostly because there is a popular school of thought in society that says that its just an excuse to be lazy-and I dont 'do' lazy. That'l be the eating disorder.

But I am so so tired all the time. Nothing seems to make any difference. Walking 2 feet makes me feel out of breath. And im not THAT unfit. And my rational self knows that even being a little overweight does not cause this degree of tiredness and breathlessness. Obviously i know the Ed is the cause. And I know that being this depressed does not help - I know im on the wrong meds, but currently my Ed service does not have a consultant - waiting for new one to start, so just have to sit it out. I always get very tired when my mood drops. But the last few weeks have been ridiculous. I slept through 2 days straight and then felt worse than ever.

i can see how my Ed makes me tired...the being sick/electrolyte imbalances etc...but how come it never improves when i manage better days of eating and not being sick?

Whats there to get better for if im too tired to notice it?

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