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Monday, 3 June 2013

Rock in a hard place

I think someone threw a wet blanket of depression over me. I'm so tired I can't find the energy to do anything. This is unfortunate, given that I am 1. On placement and 2. Currently writing my dissertation and 3. Have a horse that desperately needs schooling. 

Shit.

If only I could find the energy to wake up a bit, I might be able to summon up the motivation to do something about this.

In the meantime, I think I might just go back to bed. It's only 11 hours before I have to be back on placement and that is already a shortfall in my current need of around 23 hours snooze time.

Double shit. 

1 comment:

elk said...

hello kitten :)
I hate that you feel like this, I really do. I'm not going to try to say anything useful, but I want to say this:
I know I've been silent and out of touch, but I actually do think of you often, and it always makes me smile when you sneak into my BookFace feed. So, saying that, if you ever need anything (except answers: I can't really do answers, other than the second-hand answer of '42') please don't hesitate to shoot me a message or a rant. I can offer virtual hugs (or non-hugs but just virtually-sitting-quietly and being there, whichever you need). I care.

Ok. this is no use, and I don't want to trivialise things, but do you know what I discovered the other day? This: go to google image search, and type 'baby sloths'. Really. Just do it. Even if it can only give you a surface smile for a few brief seconds. My particular favourites are this:

http://cutestuff.co/wp-content/uploads/2012/02/cute-baby-sloth.jpg

and...

http://shame-full.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/12/sloth_3_Baby_Sloths-s750x500-301461.jpg

much love to you, kitten. Please take care of you.
xxx