going IP again

My local eating disorder service ( also a national referal centre and supposed centre of clinical excellence) now ONLY provides IP services for anorexia. WTF?!

My clinical psychologist and Go have now refered me for a second opinion from another service with the view of accessing IP services. They have also applied to primary care funding for me to go to independent treatment clinics - Priory, Ashleigh house (Care UK) and Hunterscombe. Because my local service cannot provide the care that has been recomended - a short term IP stay for stablisation and to allow my ribs to heal, and the recomendations also fit with NICE guidelines, i should be approved for funding.

I feel really ill right now. So lost and overwhelmed with it all. ANd its like no one understands how bad it is, and all i seem to be getting right now is grief from people, and and my friends at uni just dont get it. literally had enough.

Doesnt help that im also insanely sleep deprived after being up literally all night writing stupid uni assignment. Everyone else is out celebrating handing it in, and im at home in a soggy mess, because i just seem to be permenently in tears.