The noise in my head is so loud and it never lets up, not even for a second. It's been a while since I've felt this unwell, this unable to manage. But I don't feel able to cope. The noise drowns out every sane thought I have.
" stupid, fat, idiot, fat, bitch, not good enough, horrible, fat, ugly, numbers, size, fat, rubbish, weird, unlikeable, fat, alone, deserve to die, stupid, unworthy, freak, unloveable, lonely, fat, skanky, stupid stupid stupid Fat fat fat fat far fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat FAT"
Repeat for the rest of my life.
The noise wins. I can't sleep, I cant concentrate, I can't hear people even, because it's all so loud.
Noise, your prize is I give up. Trying to have a life just doesn't work. I try and be well and you are just too too loud.
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I know this won't help, and that it is all so much deeper than what's on the surface, but I saw photos of you on bookface recently and thought how lovely you looked.
I mean that. If I didn't, I wouldn't say it.
big moomin squish to you. x x
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