was making coffee earlier (this makes me feel like a real student. piles of revision notes all over the place, books everywhere and laptop balanced on top of all of that, and a continuous supply of tea/coffee/digestive biscuits), and managed to knock half a kettle of just boiled water all over my leg. BEYOND hurt, actually felt my skin sizzle.
And as i was cooling ot down and dressing it with gel pads etc, i realised 2 things. one-well, it sums my up quite well that i actually have all the dressings etc i need to sort massive burn out (i mean who has that stuff normally!), and 2- that it bloody HURT. but if i had done that to myself, it would have been the whole kettle full, and thn the rest, and it still wouldnt have hurt bad enough. perception of pain is different at different times, and its odd to have it pointed out to yourself like that.
and it really made me think about what the heck im doing to myself. and how much whats going on in my head scares me if id rather hurt that bad physically than ever think about it.
weird huh.
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Argh that sounds painful! Boiling water+ skin contact = OUCH.
Pain perception is an odd subject, like if we do something to ourselves it doesn't feel as bad as when it just happens.
Hope your burn heals okay.
xx
I just want to give you a hug for this (blogger wasn't letting me comment on some blogs for a while).
I don't have anything useful to say, because it sounds like one of those wordless realisations.
And for the post after this one - I'm not too sure what's provoked the 'fuck it', but I hope things improve. If i can do anything. message me, mm'k?
xxxx
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